Life is not as you see it but as you live it

It was half past four in the evening when I started complaining about the life to my brain.

Then I kept wondering - what in the world happened to my new year resolution of "Complain Less, Work More".

As I started leaving office, I switched on my MP3 player. All the old songs started running in the loop. It was 3 years back when I decided not to load brand new songs but all my college days favorite songs in the MP3 player which was gifted by my brother. The one decision that turned out to be correct :P

The song playing at that moment was a gloomy TS song "Cold As You "- Perfect song at perfect time. Could life be more miserable? There goes a tap on the next song. This time TS might have thought to brighten up my mood. So comes the song - The Best Day. 

Songs really have this power of drifting us through time. 

It reminded me of the days when I used to irritate my dad by singing the rock songs  - "At least sing in a way where we can understand the song" was his frequent complaint. My mom from the kitchen asking me if I had learnt any Bhakti Gitas and my brother, after being infected by the Linkin Park fever from his favorite cousin, suggesting me to try songs by LP. 

It also reminded me of the days when me and my best friend used to fight over a song. We had a rule - Whoever downloads the song first, will have the right to set the song as her mobile ringtone. Those were the days when downloading songs or the movies were the last things that used to happen via mobiles. Less technology, real interaction, silly fights, more Love.

 It reminded me of the day when I was overwhelmed for the very first comment on my very first post in my very first blog. Ahem, it was my Mom. But those were the days when smallest of smallest things brought in a lot of happiness. But let me tellya - my Mom giving positive comments is a big thing for me. There was rarely a day when she gave positive comments on the dishes I tried COOKING(let me put it this way - EXPERIMENTING). 

We all had those top most songs which represented each phase of our lives. Each and every song that kept running, took me to the gOLDEN days of my life. As I kept drifting through the PAST, my MP3 player thought to kick me out to the PRESENT. Battery bade adieu when I was about to miss to get down in my Stop. So there I was standing on one side of the road, planning to reach the other side, whenever the notorious traffic of Bengaluru spared me a minute.

Walking through the same old streets with monster apartments looking down upon me, I took my phone out to know the whereabouts of my cousin who fortunately happened to be my roommate. 

We both have this bad habit of going back to the past but at least we have each other to pull us back to the Present. Thankfully she did reach at the same time and the next moment we are on the terrace holding hot cups of tea. Though our conversations run on different topics, somehow it always ended up with the idea of marrying an agriculturist and getting settled in a village. My cousin would say- "No Pollution, No Noise, No Pestering Neighbors - Peaceful Life, Loving In-Laws". Then I would shake her up and pull her out from her daydreaming. That is when she pointed out to the wonderful view of the monster apartment. 

How else would anyone refer a kids play area - Isn't Wonderful the apt word. Childhood is full of wonders. For anything that the life threw at us, we caught it and lived it as if it was another Wonder. Getting hurt was only when we bruised our elbows or knees. Getting hurt was when we fought with siblings that only brought us closer. Getting hurt was only when mom scolded and we ignored and ran to dad. Getting hurt was when your favorite cousin called another cousin her/his favorite only to see how much jealousy has that fetched on you. 

How great would that be if we stayed in childhood forever and getting lost on wonders. (Thanks to my cousin for pulling me out from day dreaming). Time to move to bittersweet reality.

We are all confused fools as grown ups. Its OK to be confused or being fools. But complaining only fetches sympathy that is mostly faked by the people who secretly enjoy your failures.

 Live the life as it comes, but not as you see/expect it to be.

Coz when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.

FRIENDS FOR LIFE

I was very excited after my first guitar class. Despite neck pain and prickling pain in my fingers, I really loved it. May be due to excitement, me and my cousin were extremely hungry. So we thought of going to a famous restaurant nearby to have perfect coffee and yummy ravva Idly.

The idea of having food in your favorite restaurant, that too on a weekend is bad. I mean food will be ready, but you will never find place to sit and enjoy it. We were quite irritated. Luckily we found a couple leaving and were successful in finally finding an empty 4 seated table.

While we were about to start eating, we were asked by an old man if the other two chairs are reserved. When we said no he was happy. He asked one of his friends to take a seat and pulled an other empty chair from the near by table for his other friend. He and his other friend went back to self service counter to bring the food they ordered for. While leaving they joked asking us to share our food with their friend who was sitting opposite to us.  They were happy or seemed to be happy. I was not sure. But one thing is for sure. They are FRIENDS FOR LIFE

The old man sitting started asking us questions. He asked if we can understand Kannada for which we nodded a Yes. He said restaurants these days are getting busy for which we nodded again. He might have been wondering if women at home are even least bothered to cook. The two friends who went to get food returned to the table with three bondas and 2 coffee . I thought one is against drinking coffee. But then they started eating bondas and shared coffee - 2/3...They started complaining how people mix water more than milk for a coffee. Their conversation had more jokes in complaining how world is. That is when I was sure that they are one set of happy friends. Then their conversation became a little bit serious. Though I could not get what they were talking about , I was sure they started talking about their own problems. No more jokes, they sat serious for some time. Then they started joking and laughing again. After all life is to be led by forgetting and forgiving. While Forgetting is God's best gift to human, forgiving is the best gift from a human to the other. It seems their friendship and spending time together filled their stomachs. 

After they left, me and my cousin got lost in thoughts of  how one should be lucky enough for being friends for such a long time.

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Well in that case I was, am and will be lucky. I already have friends who really are so close to me. Though many of them likes irritating me a lot and though sometimes I avoid talking in front of them just to prevent me getting teased, I know that that is what best buddies do. When u really need a help they will never ever say No. 

I really really really wish that my friends will be FRIENDS FOR LIFE just like how the three old men were.  

'18'- (In the style of Taylor Swifts '15')-Remembering college days

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Take a deep breath n walk trough the gate, its the morning of ur very first day.
Say bye to ur mom n dad, who are finding it hard to leave u for the very first time.

Its a freshmen year and u r gonna be here for the next four years-in this town.
And one of the girls crying, being nostalgic n she knows everyone feels the same.

When u r '18', you r gonna be in ur first year, u r gonna be brave.
When u r '18' feeling like there's nothing to figure out.

Love the place n the class before u ever could miss it someday- @ '18'.

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You sit in a class with big windows around n soon enough have best friends.
Laughing at the other girls, who just think they are so cool- we 'll be out of here as soon as we can.

Then on your very first holiday, we have all the five days n feel like flying.
N our momma's waiting up, coz we r gonna be home soon-we r dancing round n round as the day ends...as the day ends...

And when u r '18',somebody seems damn cute n ur friend                                                                             feels the same.

when u r '18',with ur friends around makes ur head spin round n round

Well,in your life u'll do things greater than u'd ever thought u'll ever do,I didnt know it at '18'.

Now u r '22',all you always do,wishing u'd go back n enjoy every moment of it.

4 years back with ur true friends, it was fun when u realised some bigger dreams in life
When she told she gave every thought to someone who changed her world.
We all laughed....

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When u r '18', somebody will be always be around, when u feel like falling.
But when u get older, dont forget to look before u fall..

And time can heal almost everything, just find who u r supposed to be, now I know who I wanna be-...'18'...

A Horrible Journey....A Perfect Couple

23rd september . A horrible five hour journey in train .It had always been better  to travel for 3 hrs by bus. A passenger train stopping @ every station- big and small, loading with more and more people, I was frightened. Soon it was overloaded and sitting in an inch of place was so uncomfortable. My friend kept on looking @ me, asking me every now and then if I had enough place. Actually she was the one sitting very uncomfortably in the corner of the seat.

I was thinking how the people in the very next station gets into the train when it is horribly overcrowded. As I was thinking, train halted in the next station. People were rushing in, children raising their heads up for some air, women shouting @ men who were using their strength to push people aside for a place to sit.

Just then an old couple stepped inside- a traditionally well dressed ,perfect Andhra man with Kanduva on his shoulder, asking younger people to give way so that his wife could stand comfortably somewhere. But there was not even enough place to move. So they stood in the same place searching for some empty space. My friend and myself thought of giving our places to them. But we ourselves sat in a very less and congusted place. So we kept looking @ others who could give place to them. Just then old man found a place for his wife to sit. And he felt extremely happy for it. But he kept standing, his hands trembling-unable to hold the support above him. When my friend asked where he wants to get down, he asked us the same question in return. When we said Chennai, the last stop, he just smiled and signalled us to sit. He wants to get down @ a station just 2 stations before the last one. I was wondering how long he could stand like that. After few minutes, unable to stand without any support to the back, he requested a woman standing comfortably next to a seat, laughing @ her collegues jokes. She didnot move. My friend too requested her, saying that old man needs some support to stand. She agreed and there he stood comfortably.

He stood there happily, but his wife was not happy looking @ him standing in a small congusted place. As the next station arrived, the girl sitting next to the old woman got down. Though it was a small place to sit, the couple sat happily. 

While we were all concerned about journey to come to an end asap, the only thing the old couple were concerned was about each other. It was so good to see them caring for each other. Thats why its said love and affection should only grow with time. The old couple is a perfect example for it.

SNSD T.O.P-English lyrics-By Me:)

Do you remember, when you said we are the loosers?

Original Song

But you never knew that we are the warriors!!

Watch out, watch out-right now, we are surrounding you;
Coz when we come back, its a hundred percent surprising yo!!!

Ring the bell(ring the bell)- There's no one to save you;
Make a call(make a call)- there's no one to answer;
Cry today(cry today)- Coz there's no tomorrow;
Boys, you should know we will be on TOP....(We..We...We kill it)...

Chorus- Up against the wall, this sky and space is all ours..We kill it...
We are on the right track, we will be on TOP..yeah..
GG rules the world, this century is Girl's Generations..
Lets say it...
We are the right track, we are still on TOP.. yeah...

Oh...Oh...

You say its over..So what??
It always starts again...You can never know it!!! Yeah...
Who says we cant win?!! Its time you should stop it...(Whatever)...;
We can be the mystery...Maybe you should know we make history...;

Ring the bell(ring the bell)- We have got a mission;
Marvelous(marvelous)- we are camouflaging;
So Cry today(cry today)- Coz there's no tomorrow;
Boys, you should know we will be on TOP....(We..We...We kill it)...

Chorus- Up against the wall, this sky and space is all ours..We kill it...
We are on the right track, we are still on TOP..yeah..
GG rules the world, this century is Girl's Generations..
Lets say it...
We are the right track, we are still on TOP.. yeah...

We love to take risks and drive all the time;
We are lucky enough, we are dynamite;
We never worry, coz its gonna be alright!!
Oh Oh Oh....

We like to play cool and have fun;
If you wanna say a word, just think one more time;
Adios Amigos, don't regret-we never step back;

Chorus- Up against the wall, this sky and space is all ours..We kill it...
We are on the right track, we are still on TOP..yeah..
GG rules the world, this century is Girl's Generations..
Lets say it...
We are the right track, we are still on TOP.. yeah...||2||

Just for laughs;)...My love for Bangalore...TS's Come Back,Be Here song's modification...

You said it in a simple way, 5 pm the before day, How strange that I didn't care at all...
Well I stumbled through the long goodbye; One last glance then catch the bus;
Right when I was just about to leave;

I told myself don't get attached;But in my mind it always played back-Spinning faster than the bus that took me;
This is when the decisions sink in, I don't wanna miss u like this;
So I wanna come back and be there; I wanna come back and be there

SNSD Time Machine-Eng Lyrics(by me)

Its hard to feel your absence now, as love can give us only pain ;
Its over, I guess its over.

Its hard to think about the past again, there's no more happiness in my world;
Are you feeling the same way as I feel; Guess you are feeling the same way as I feel!!

One mistake, got a one regret;
I hope it had never happened before;

One mistake, just one regret;
Whatever I say, the wounds cant heal this time....

chorus:I need a time machine, and it could bring you back,
Bringing joy all over again, shattering my sadness.

Though I know, its hard to bring you back,
Then why I am here waiting all the time for you...

I need a time machine, oh....
I need a time machine, oh oh....

The time being passed away, its hard to walk alone down this road
The heartbreak that you gave to me, its too heavy and too cold;

The day when you left with those last few words,
I am replaying it now and my heart still hurts;
And I hope you could always hear me cry.....

Just one mistake, just one regret
I maybe so selfish but I cant help it....

chorus:||I need a time machine||

I need a time machine...
It feels like my world is getting dark and blank

If I could jump through time,
If I would be able to meet, the true love
Then I would hold you tight and never let go....

Chorus: ||Need a time machine||

Yeah, even before any of my memories get erased...
Give me a time machine...
Oh...Give me a time machine||2||.....